A cold evening in summer

Warm tears of blue
Fall.
Can you feel
The unbearable loneliness
Of being?

Darkness is a close friend
Darkness is the only friend
Wrapping it's warm shawl around
The scared and scarred mind.
There's no one to blame here.
There's just me and darkness.

There's no one to blame here
So let the tears pour.
Let them warm your cheek
And the corners of your pillow
As you weep.
How long
How long has it been
Since you let yourself be
Alone with yourself?
You surrounded yourself
With so many people
Just so you can
Stop yourself from screaming.

There's no one to blame here,
So let the tears pour.

Self-acceptance they say,
They've seen enough demons
To know my own-
But even they know
They can never see them
Like I do.
Invisible monsters
Lurking in broad daylight
Making night day,
Killing my dreams with
My own thoughts.
I no longer know
If I deserve happiness.
Probably not,
But then does that mean
There's some probability
I do?

I'm so tired.
I'm so tired.
I'm so tired.

No,
I don't want to see you.
I don't want to feel anything but
Home.
Home.
I don't even know
What it means anymore.
What compass do you use
To get back
If your heart is broken?
Do I even have a memory
That still has a place
For me?
Or is the heart
Wildly spinning
Because I've been running backwards
From the future
All this god damned while.

The lights inside dim
As the sun spills into the sky at dawn.
You're left with nothing
But tiredness and tear stains
Stretching your eyes.

You look around for comfort.
The birds will not understand you.
The clock will not understand you.
The light will not understand you.

There's no one to blame here
So let the tears pour and
Warm your heart-

It's been a long time
Since you held yourself tight.

 Kristina Skliarchuk
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