Forget me

Darling forget me
Fate had brought us together
Since then you've been tethered
Darling forget me

Darling forget me
I was everything you wanted
Every darkness I haunted
Darling forget me

Darling forget me
I was the voice to your soft soul
That you tried and failed to control
Darling forget me

Darling forget me
I had the eyes of the endless sea
And only drowning would have set you free
Darling forget me

Darling forget me
I was the morphine to your pain
I made reality yellow stains
Darling forget me

Darling forget me
We danced till our bodies were one
And our sense of self came undone
Darling forget me

Darling forget me
Our lives were their fantasies
No one knew we lived parodies
Darling forget me

Darling forget me
We could dissolve the darkness into light
Let the brightness kill our sight
Darling forget me

Darling forget me
We had the world at our feet
Let its ashes fall on our streets
Darling forget me

Darling forget me
I was your saviour, I was your heart
That is why you had to tear me apart
Darling forget me

A Sonnet for Rain

Dearest rain

You brought my lovers

You endured my screams

Screams of pain

Screams of pleasure

Whispers of memories.

Entwined in the 

Cold wetness of your touch

Is the warmth and relief

Of possibility

And feeling.

I will never stop

Loving you.

You don’t know me

But you made me

Who I am today.

You blotched the

pages of my diaries-

Scribbles I cared for

Words I didn’t.

I feel your warmth on 

My skin

As you slide off

My face

Pointed to the sky

The wetness of

The earth

Seeps through my bare feet.

My arms move back and forth

As my fingers

Run through my hair

That sticks to my skin.

Then Thunder rolls

And my body shudders.

My oldest friend

My oldest lover

You will live

Even when I’m gone.

You won’t remember me

But

As my ashes

Will mix with the earth

Life will thrive

Through you still.

Inspiration

It’s late.

The itchiness

At the back of my eyes

Has started.

I have to keep going

I’m so tired.

So hungry.

So tangled.

But I heard the right note

In that song 

On that playlist

I had carelessly

Put together.

Suddenly,

It’s easier

To be an artists

To be a genius

To be a worker-

Even if only for

Five seconds.

Those five seconds

Rushes in like a wave

Gently washing away

The fatigue

The doubt

The loneliness.

In those 5 seconds

I can be whatever I want to be.

And then it ends.

My eyes are itchy again.

The tiredness 

Pulls me down like 

An anvil.

Every other waking moment

Then spent on

Trying to recreate

That perfect note

That perfect beat

That perfect mood

For those 5 seconds

When I’m invincible.

रासलीला

बस 

अब बस. 

अकेले यहाँ 

नहीं खड़े रह सकते हम.

ज़िन्दगी भर 

अपने घरों में बैठकर 

चमगादड़ के तरह 

सोते रहे दिन भर. 

जागे तो 

सिर्फ अपने अँधेरे के लिए. 

बहुत रो लिए हम भी 

टूटे बिखरे लाशों के लिए. 

हम बेवकूफ थे 

जो सोचते थे 

हमारी चीखें 

ऊंची तख्तों तक 

किसी तरह पहुँच कर 

पत्थर दिलों को 

पिघला देंगी. 

पहुंचा तो था 

हमारा कोलाहल 

पर जवाब दिया 

शहनाई और नगाड़ों से. 

भक्तों ने सिर्फ 

दो रसों की लीला रची.

रौद्र और भय 

मंच के नायक थे. 

शहनाई की फटती आवाज़ 

अब मेरे कानों को सुन्न 

कर चुकी हैं। 

भस्म कर चुकीं हैं 

उन  इन्द्रियों को 

जो कभी मुझे 

दुनिया की जटिलता 

की आभास देती थीं. 

चमगादड़ की तरह 

अब व्यासविकता भी 

मेरे साथ 

उल्टी सो रही है. 

बस.

बस!

चाहे हमें किसी खंडाल में 

बर्खास्त  किया हो -

दिन में भले ही 

हम शिकार बने  हों-

रात में उड़ेंगे चाहे 

अमावस्या क्यों न हो !

चमकती भड़कीली मंच पर 

उसकी काली परछाई को 

बेनकाब कर 

बिगूलों के खूटे स्वरों को

अपनी करकशी से दबाएंगे . 

भले ही आँखों से करनी हो बातें 

अकेले नहीं रहेंगे और. 

चिमगादड़  झुण्ड में 

निकलते हैं -

एक साथ ही 

काली पर्दों के सामने 

खेलेंगे 

सच्ची रासलीला.