Monday, November 11, 2019

Love Poem for the Romantics


What is it about the romantics
That makes them so charming?

Perhaps it’s their ability to make
Ordinary things
Extraordinary
Fantastic
Universal 
Precious.
'Love is God.’
‘Truth is God.’
'Reason is God.'

Perhaps they let us
All believe that 
Even 
Our small lives 
Can be 
Glorious.


There is courage
In being romantic, I think.
It takes a certain type of person
To hope 
So much
That it is 
Infectious.
No wonder it's
So dangerous
So callous
So deeply feared.

For romance 
To survive
To spread
It must collapse difficult questions
Into emotions
And answers
That give prescriptions
No one truthfully understands.

It must make us believe 
We all are
More than specks of dust-
That life is not
Arbitrary.

It must convince us that
We matter.

Struggle must have value,
How else will Love win in the end?
How else will we will we find a point
In winning?

Belief in significance is
The opioid of the weary.

We search for answers
In love
In hope
In dreams
In reason
In regret-
Because all of us
Can love
Will hope
Still dream
Try reason
Have regret.

But when have answers
Laid in the universal?
No love is the same.
No hope is the same.
No dream, reason or regret is the same.
Yet we desperately seek comfort  
In being understood-
In being collapsed.

Don't too many of us
Have strong opinions
On how to live
A sensible life?

We could all be correct
Or wrong
And it would be equally meaningless
And meaningful
To strive for more
Or less.

There's an arrogance to suppose
This world unfolds
With sense.

There's a hopefulness to want
This world unfolds
With sense.

There's a necessity to believe
This world unfolds
With sense.

All we have is
What we 
Feel and
Comprehend.

So we must keep alive
The romantics amongst us,
The paramores
The plumbers
The politicians
The pontifiers
The poets.

Only the audacity of romance,
However dangerous,
However paradoxical,
Gives us all
Something to live for.

Chaos Theory: Lorenz Attractors
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Lorenz_system_r28_s10_b2-6666.png

Monday, November 4, 2019

Silence

Silence
Gently falling like an autumn leaf
Red, yellow and green
In a large crowded room
Shrunken with people huddled together for
The warmth of company
In their chic clothing and
Tightly held wine glasses.
I wonder if they too secretly
Thank climate scientists
For gifting us longer conversations
About the weather.
The chattering mutes out
The noises in the head.
There is heat in this silence that
I'm comfortable with.

I do not want real silence.
That would mean a real conversation.
It would mean I would I have to listen.
It would mean I might have to change.
Again.

The problem with real conversations
Is that they end.
They end
And you are left with only words.
Only words
To string up the thoughts to
Justify your actions.
Your actions
That create more questions
Than give you answers.
Answers
That you keep trying to
Find in real conversations.
Real conversations that only end with words...
Words that can't string your thoughts...
Thoughts that don't justify actions...
Actions that create more questions...
Questions with no answers in words-
Words in real conversation-
Real conversation that doesn't string-
Strings that don't justify-
Justify all the questions-
Questions in real conversation-
Real conversation-
Words-
Strings-
Thoughts-
Actions-
Answers-
Questions-
Real-
Words-
Real-
Thoughts-
Words-
ThouGHts-
ReaL-
words-
WoRDs-
wOrdS-
woRds-
WORDS!!

This silence dins.
This silence hurts.
It starts so innocently.
How does it end
In a cold deafening embrace?

Maybe I am too young
And impatient,
Even though
It feels like
This silence is ageing me
Beyond recognition.
White skin
Black eyes
White hair.
Maybe I must wait,
I must learn,
I must change.
Calm waters
That don't decay
Are ever changing.
Surely they too
Bubbled
And gushed
With rage
And uncertainty
Once.
Surely the rocks
Beneath them
Smoothened
And padded
Themselves with moss
On which innocent hands
Could slip
But not cut.

Perhaps one day
Real silence
Will not numb.
Perhaps silence will calm
And open what is shut out.
Perhaps one day
Silence will be gentle
And soft
Like the new leaves of spring
That glisten
With fresh dew at daybreak.
Perhaps one day
Silence will let me listen.

Silence and Beauty- Birth
Makoto Fujimura
https://www.makotofujimura.com/works/