When I Stood

Things that should have been said
But weren't
Hid behind the curtains
That should have been dusted years ago
But weren't.

I stood there waiting for long enough,
Hoping that the shadows would
Move in the darkness
And turn into things I would recognize.

I stood there waiting till I knew
Darkness would always be still,
Shadows would always be illusions,
Dust would always settle in crevices,
And words would always trickle like water.

When I turned to leave,
I hadn't left it all behind.

Memories that shouldn't have been
But were
Grew on rough surfaces
That shouldn't have been damp
But were.

I walked away
Hoping that there will be roads
That would lead me to places
That would turn into Home.

I walked away till I knew
Roads would only have names and no mind
Places would only have structures and no heart
Surfaces would only weather with time
Memories would only shape mind and heart.

When I stood again
I was alone
And only the wind and I sang.